I can't keep up. I can't. I've said it. I like blogging. I LOVE reading other people's blogs. It's one of those after dinner/before school work/before putting my son to bed, type of wind down from the day activities. I connect (by myself) with others in the triathlon world -- albeit remotely and from a distance -- but, it reaffirms that I am not alone in trying to slog through workouts....and life.
I don't really slog through life. Life is terrific. But sometimes, well, more than sometimes -- it's just too damn busy. I am a full-time English teacher, own a photography business, a triathlete, a wife and a mom. And to add to all that -- I chair an eleven member English dept., and advise both the yearbook and newspaper.
I think it's time to give myself permission to let go of the blog occasionally and not feel guilty. I have this wonderful friend. She is also an English teacher. But she also is the most terrific homemaker, making amazing dinners and baking for her family, redecorating her house, starring in local theater productions, etc.. She is simply amazing. And then she started her blog -- which I LOVE. But she started 28 days ago and she has posted a blog entry 28 times!!!!!!
I can't compete with that. And why the hell am I trying to compete at all? Well, if you know me -- that really isn't a difficult question to answer. The point is -- I shouldn't be. Who the hell cares if I post every few weeks?
Part of the problem is that I think I have to have some profound idea or craft some clever writing in order to be "blog worthy." Again -- who the hell cares?
I can't keep up my digital life....and it's slowly dying. Facebook, Daily Mile, Twitter, Google sites, SKYPE, my website, email (4 different accounts for all different reasons), three listserves, texting, apps......... I think I could go on, on, on, on, on, on, on, on........
I LOVE information. I spend my day sharing information, showing how to access information, analyzing information, synthesizing information, creating information, removing information, appreciating information.......and when I get home -- I think that I can't process any more information.
Yes, reading blogs is taking in more information -- but it's temporary. I connect with someone's experience, relate it to my own and let it go. Maybe that's why I LOVE those horrible "Real Housewives of Wherever" programs -- they have absolutely NOTHING to do with my life and when the program is over -- I can let it go.
Hats off to all of you who can keep up. I can't. I hate being that kid that can't keep up with the bigger kids. And in most cases -- that would motivate me to work harder. I don't want to be left out.
But it's self preservation at this point. I will make appearances when I can. When I can't -- I have to let it go. I have to let myself "dump" my digital life.
But today -- we're "back together." I'm worse than a teenager.